BLOWING OFF THAT FLICKER OF FLAME

sho s.

i don't understand. you played the game and you got what you wanted. it hurt me for a little while but hey, i saw coming long before. there were signs. while i let them past me, i was prepared. i feel sorry that oli did what she did to you but then again, you deserved it.

after all these, saying sorry doesn't matter anymore. it doesn't make a difference. i could do a lot of things to bring you down but i didn't. and i won't. you have my word. i don't want to play dirty. it's clear it isn't worth to soil my hands. i let you have it. i don't believe in firsts, seconds or thirds. i'm born and raised to be the one and only.

still, i don't understand, but you know what, i don't have to understand. i just need to let you go. and i did that the day you unfolded your game. you should let me go too.

rei k.

HE AND I

it's funny how things progressed between us. i remembered very vividly the first day i met him. he left me a very funny and deep impression. with his status, i just thought it was going to be a hi and bye thing. i was proved wrong when we met again last july. i was pleasantly surprised we had things in common. we constantly kept in touch while i was posted to ny and then chad. i didn't realise how much impact i had on him. i wasn't sure how my feelings back then but after seeing him making effort to spend time with me after returning to tokyo despite his crazy schedule, my feelings grew deeper. he was more than what i thought he was when i first met him. we may not be able to date normally as normal couples do but i'm happy. how our schedule fits wonderfully is a blessing. night drives and stay-in during the day are sweet memories.

i'm happy when he's there. no matter where we are,we still have fun an enjoy each other's company. that's what matters the most.

RARE TREAT

while sho and i love going out but many a time we'll find ourselves just driving around. the consequence can be a bit of a shock and very stressful for both of us, more for him as a matter of fact. plus i feel really bad when shit happens. however, we took a risk at a trip to yokohama chinatown few nights ago and it was just perfect. we strolled down the streets with ease and i even managed to concentrate taking pictures. it was the most perfect date since we started dating early march.

SHOW US SOME GOOD TIME

good to be home!

addendum: would you believe it. i misspelled my own name. lol

GOODBYE

last week in chad.

OF CHRISTMAS, NEW YEAR, wii & SHIN!

shinpe flew to nyc without notice and spent a wonderful week with us. along with him, he brought wii so when we weren't out bar-hopping, we were engaged in boxing on wii. talking about bar-hopping, it was from au to barbes. never had i hopped onto so much of different scenes in a night!

oli's homemade christmas dindin was decadent that would put nobu in shame. a fusion of japanese and western indulge, oli made the best foie gras i've ever tasted.

new year countdown in times square was another different story. never had i thought i'd be counting down here. exactly a year ago, i was in karthoum with doug. it was a quite one with the rest of the team. this year, i had it all blown out. he'd loved nyc too.

AND WE FINALLY WON

shinpe got us some really nice seats to soukeisen.

and yes keio finally kicked waseda's ass 7-3 after 8 humiliating losses. finally.

NYC IN SEPTEMBER

Hello. I'm back here again.

Where my dream started.

Where a large sum of my money will go to.


Where New Yorkers remember the heroes.

OF DOGS, PLANES, CELEBRITIES & A BIRTHDAY

milo was a mad dog when he saw the planes after we arrived at the airstrip. as expected, tofu was turned off by the crazy humming noise so she stayed with mom and dad on ground. flying with milo and dad was a walk down the memory lane, i felt like i was 15 again when i first flew the plane with dad. we reminisced the time when he was the one piloting the plane. how time flew so fast.

skydiving was absolutely crazy. just like bungee, it's something that you ought to do it at least once in your life. i'm glad i did it and it's already my 3rd dive yesterday.

last week saw me flying a group of japan 'super idols' for skydive and one of them was absolutely freaking out before getting off. though i might wanna add they are pretty down to earth and just plain hilarious. meeting them did spark me to watch some of their shows. Well, two words for them; pure entertainment. milo did leave a huge impression on them as he was onboard. ah my sweet milo. as for us, we were just glad the session ended without mishap. man, they did weird stuff up there you have no idea. guess watch their show when it's aired. the boys'll be on tv by the way. :D
to end, i absolutely miss that guy who's in sudan now. sigh.