AND WE FINALLY WON

shinpe got us some really nice seats to soukeisen.

and yes keio finally kicked waseda's ass 7-3 after 8 humiliating losses. finally.

MOVE FORWARD

carmen and i dreamed of him and he had the similar message for both of us. i guess he knew that both of us needed much comfort to ease the sorrow and of course the strength to let him go. and those words left for us did give us the strength to do so.

so yes, people. i'm ready. :)

SOLACE

tokyo's been kind to me and okinawa comforted me. mt. mitaka trip with shuuhei was refreshing and having to spend a week in okinawa with mom was good.

his last words to me were still loud and clear to me. those 8 words gave me so much strength and they keep me going. it's just so weird to have finally accept that he's gone. carmen and i still talk over the phone in effort to make things easy for both of us.

friends are sweet and encouraging. i'm not ready but i'm definitely trying. give me just a little bit longer and i'll be back. yes i know, shin's been talking about on how to pimp me out. :)

DECIDED

i'll be posted to nyc this august for 8 months, instead of the planned deploy to east timor.

CURL ME UP AND FOLD ME AWAY

hello.

i thank you for those kind sweet comforting words and i'm sorry i had to withdraw from the world for a while. the two weeks in sydney was hard for everyone. many things were in need to be done and all of us tried to comfort one another. adrian dropped everything from singapore and flew back to sydney the moment the news was broke out to him. the sorrow was almost undescribeable.

one question keeps haunting me:

why did god take him away when he was the one who brought us together in the first place?

BLISS

engaged.

it happened yesternight. :D

ALL IS WELL

i almost never update this blog when i'm deployed but i know not why i just feel like doing it today. coincidentally, he and i have some free time today so we spent the day quietly at the local hotel which was owned by a malaysian and they serve many malaysian dishes for dinner, which reminded me of mom so i utilised the business centre to skype her.
it's almost funny that how doug and i ended up here in sudan together. looking back, we've known each other since we were, what, 11? we were downright nasty at each other back then and luck had it that we were stuck in the same school and same class until year 11. even after then, when i was in tokyo, we did get casual updates about each other through mutual friends. i went for medicine so was he, but of a different kind. he was aiming for raamc. 5 years later without any contact, god made us meet again. it had to be the weirdest thing that happened in the weirdest place; afghanistan. it gave a whole level of meaning to 'love knows no boundaries' for us. also it made my first fieldwork easier because of him. fast forward, it's been a year since the fateful meeting and we are going strong. in between he's stationed home while i flew to sydney as often as i could. mysteriously, we got our deployment to sudan at almost the same time.
he had changed so much since i left for tokyo. he wasn't the boy i couldn't see eye to eye. instead he was absolutely charming and charismatic that literally swept me off feet. of course, the fact that i always get to see him in fatigues is a major plus point.
like today, he surprised me with a day trip to the hotel as his idea of pampering me. we are at the point where i know what he wants and he me. it is so comfortable to just talk to him without me hesitating over my choice of words and choice of topics. despite geographically-challenged, our life is simply blissful.